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Compassionate Misanthropic Hedonism
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| Oh man. . . |
[May. 9th, 2006|10:59 am] |
Haven't updated in a while. . . Shit son. . .
Over a lot of things.
Looking forward to a lot of things.
And it needs to stop being cloudy.
Fucking libraries.
Holla back for waxing.
Fin. |
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[Oct. 21st, 2005|06:01 pm] |
Everyone listen to Stars.
And Hollywood Undead.
And come visit me at work.
I'm bored.
And I'm getting my plane tickets to come home for Christmas. . . I'm pretty excited. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
Life is good.
Sweet even. |
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| Mmmmm |
[Sep. 16th, 2005|07:09 pm] |
So I am in love with two things.
1. Bean & Guacamole & potato burritos from Pedro's
2. Stefanie
And okay, things are just going too awesome for words.
Who said being homeless was ever supposed to be depressing and hopeless?
Job interview tomorrow. So, here's to hoping. . .
Hugs and kisses everyone!!
XOXOXOX.....L
PS I might be coming home for my birthday, not sure yet. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2005|02:48 pm] |
Went to Mexico this weekend.
Won't be talking about that heh heh. . . |
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[Sep. 1st, 2005|03:11 pm] |
I only feel anger.
I could seriously kill.
Don't think you'll be safe back home without our protection, you're done, and one day it will come to bite you in the ass.
The way you treat people. . .you deserve to be beaten within an inch of your life and then have everything you've ever loved stolen, broken, damaged, or dead in your own arms.
I won't hesitate to punch you in your coked up nose, or beat your ugly face until it's unrecognizable.
This is unforgivable and YOU are a piece of shit fucking liar, two faced backstabbing bastard of a friend.
I'm so glad I won't see you again.
Fuck you.
I'm done. |
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[Aug. 31st, 2005|12:33 pm] |
So I saw dolphins the other day off the coast. . .that was pretty rad.
Things are getting better down here. . .And I'm reaaaally excited about it.
I ate a really good burrito yesterday.
Being homeless is boring except for the getting faded, I now understand completely and will never get down on any other homeless person again. . . Seriously.
But we're moving into our practice space today, which is way rad, it's vicinity to the water. . .not so much. Now I have to drive 20 minutes to get to the beach.
So whack. |
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| Wow |
[Aug. 25th, 2005|04:14 pm] |
So I'm finally settled (kinda) for the time being down here in Sunny California. . .
Things haven't QUITE gone 100 percent like they're supposed too, but that's too be expected. I'm fairly certain it'll all work out, seeing as how we're all working hard to make sure it does.
I will not fail at this.
And I mean c'mon. . .I go to the beach EVERY DAY. . .Ahhh. .. Jealous??
But still. . .I can't seem to get any sun. . .I'm outside all day and I'm still as pale as printer paper.
Sigh.
Kiel is leaving today though too, and I'm going to miss that guy TOO MUCH. We've certainly had some crazy f'n adventures this pass week.
Many of them too awesome and scandalous to be listed for this audience. . .
Oh yeah, and everyone back home that cares.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
(Especially you Ryan)
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[Aug. 18th, 2005|12:57 pm] |
So a couple things.
I left and am in Sacramento on my way down. bye bye.
HA HA, the fair was rad, but I wish I saw more people when I was there, but no one had money and everyone was busy.
I miss my friends already, and I saw Justine yesterday and it made me really sad, so I did what I usually do when I get that way and I just stopped talking.
But she made me the best card ever. And I hope she doesn't ever lose touch with me.
I'll so stab you cupcake!!
Matt and I rule at everything and are having more fun than you.
I love Stefanie. And am realising it more and more.
And I GET AWESOME!!! (So does Meghano)
That is all.
<3 |
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[Aug. 9th, 2005|03:24 pm] |
My journal entries have gotten too serious.
Today was my last day of work. . .FUCK YEAH!!
So naturally I was quite bored.
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[Jul. 31st, 2005|02:54 pm] |
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to everyone that came to our going away party on Friday, it was just too much good times to handle.
The show went EXCELLENT, I wish a couple of our older friends would've made it on time, but it's all good. . .the encouragement they gave me afterwards more than made up for it. And it was simply amazing to see SO MANY old friends and new come out to show their support, it was probably the most emotional show we've played in a long time. Sarah gave me a rose too. . .(aww) Even Nick from Eugene made it out to the show, it was an amazing coincidence that he was in town, and I think we showed him a good time. heh heh. . .
The party was off the hizzy as well. . . Same level of emotion and satisfaction. . .(Except add cheap keg beer and various recreational drugs)
It felt good to get drunk and pass out in my van again. Ahh. . .working too much has kind of steered me away from the Crunkton Express, which I suppose is good, but whatever. . .it was MY PARTY AND I'LL GET DRUNK AND SLEEP IN MY VAN IF I WANT TOO.
I'll miss all of you, I didn't even realize it until Friday. . .it's going to suck not having you all in my daily life, but I guess that's what the internets for. :)
Matt and I hung out downtown all day yesterday and just talked and had a Seattle day, I'm going to miss this city a lot too. . . the monuments, the buildings, the smells, the sights. . .those roads I've driven down so many times.
16 days Seattle. . . <3 |
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[Jul. 28th, 2005|06:18 pm] |
One of my customers today called me the sweetest young man she's ever known. . .she gave me chocolate from Germany (I couldn't bear to not take it<3, I gave it to my brother) and told me to thank my mother for doing such a good job on me when I got home.
She called me "baby" and "honey pie" it was extra, extra adorable.
I found more in common with her husband who is 82 than in any other person I've ever met to date.
My life as an old (black) man suddenly flashed in front of me.
I think we're going to be okay here.
I want to shop before I leave.
And I want to see ALL OF YOU at our going away party tomorrow at Mexi Mike Torres' house!!!
Bros, Beers, Blunts, and Bitches in full effect. . .It's going to be HUGE, HUUUUGE!!!!
We're playing all of our old songs too. |
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| So |
[Jul. 21st, 2005|09:28 pm] |
So.
Last night was quite nice, I hung out with Ben and Matt and Chris and helped cleaned their apartment before we all move, it sucked since they hadn't been living there since they were robbed, so everything was just kinda barren and all too surreal.
I hadn't seen those fools in like two weeks too, and had really started to miss them quite terribly.
Everyone got emotional too, as we went over all of the sentiment that had built up in their apartment over time, and spoke of what was to happen in the future. B
Ben and Chris are leaving two weeks before Matt and I, so it's going to be saddening again not having them around.
True friendship is seeing their faces and knowing they're my brothers till death.
True friendship is EVERYTHING that we have gone through together and are still standing and still love eachother unconditionally.
<3
We found some of Brian's stuff too, and a couple of old pictures, little things here and there that brought a deep measure of nostalgia to the evening. Things I'm glad the fucking bitches who robbed them decided to leave alone.
I noticed Ben seemed very pained too, when we were cleaning and uncovered all of the strollers and various baby knick knacks he had purchased before what's her name went all psycho-hose-beast. I think deep down he'll never get over that and what she did.
Anyway I was tired as shit this morning and work was whack. . . I need to get out of that nazi slave camp soon. Don't get me wrong it's fun as hell.
My boss is just worse than Hitler.
I'm going to drink now. |
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| So. . .Oregon |
[Jul. 19th, 2005|10:34 pm] |
I think this weekend can be described as totally awesome.
It's on the same level as dragon slaying or a victory at putt putt golf.
Which are both very high on my levels of good timesery. . .
Okay. . .so I don't drive well and was reminded of such.
And I take crappy pictures.
And even though there was that silence, which saddened me a little bit towards the end. . .
I still would not have given one second up for anything. NOT ONE!!
Not for all the putt putt 1st place trophies and slain dragons in the world.
Highlights:
-- Rockstars by the gallon (pretty much)
-- Crazy 'Nam vets in dive bars from Seattle
-- Splattering Taco bell packets for distance (I'm pretty sure I won)
-- Pretty much Taco Bell
-- Parks in Springfield after "curfew" (yeah apparently there's a curfew down there, luckily I'm old. . .ha ha)
-- Tile painting. . .sail boats. . .unicorns. . .love. . .and scuba divers. . .
-- SHOPPING!!!!!
-- Thrift store coats that were totally bodacious
-- Eating whole onions with mah TDE boyzzz. . .
-- Dance parties in the car
-- Picture taking. . .
-- SHOPPING!!!!!
-- Shoes and bags and blue elephants!! <3
-- Ziggy
-- Fucking air conditioning
-- Hugs
-- Meeting new people that were rad (Dylan and Jeremiah and Chris and Amanda). . .
( Oh and these gems right here )
I love you BESTEY!!
Like fo life n shit.
Seriously.
<3333 |
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[Jul. 12th, 2005|02:12 am] |
Wilkeson is the worst town ever.
Seriously, Logan, move. . .
Maybe. . .to LA??
I'll get lonely nights. . .
I've decided my middle name shall be "good times" and I shall roll as such. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2005|12:37 am] |
I ate vegan cupcakes today. . .
They were so fabulous!! I bet I can con Sarah into more wonderful baked deliciousness in the future. I'll just shake my moneymaker and maybe show her my boobs??
I bought various goods and services today with my own money for the first time in forever.
My friends are all eternally happy for me I'm sure. . .ha ha, they're going to save so much money now.
I hope they all know how grateful I am to all of them and to all of YOU for always being there and helping me out.
Now it's going to be my turn to spend money to help everyone out. :)
<3
I'm beginning to have a lot of doubts though. . .a LOT of doubts.
I want to kill the guy that slapped Chris. ("You don't slap a man!!" HA HA)
I want to leave this place.
And I want certain people to make up their mind, about everything. I think I've wrapped too many emotions in it. . .way more than I shoud've allowed myself too.
I sang karaoke at work today. I mean. . .c'mon!! |
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| Okay |
[Jul. 7th, 2005|03:03 am] |
So I got a haircut this weekend.
I blew shit up.
I ate fake meat.
I drank beer.
I worked. . .but didn't "work," HA HA I love my job.
Today I spun around in my chair until I passed out, then took a nap, then got taken out to lunch.
It's hard work I tell you what.
I'm posting pictures of the new dew. . .I don't like it so much, but it's hair I guess.
Stupid Kiersten moved to Houston.
That's me in case anyone forgot what I looked like. |
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[Jul. 4th, 2005|01:12 am] |
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I'm not handling this well |
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| There are those who were there, and those who will claim to have been there |
[Jul. 3rd, 2005|11:12 am] |
So I know I already updated yesterday, but I just had to write about the greatest night ever.
Holy shit it was fun.
Mainly because Dennis was there hanging out and it was just raucous good times. He was wearing short shorts with a stuffed crotch and I performed felatio on his inflated package. . .it's times like these I wish I had a camera.
HA HA. . Even though my ex girlfriend showed up and just gave me dirty looks and mean comments all night, I even played The Cure for her and gave her a beer.
It's okay because as soon as she left everyone started cheering.
Karen called her a bitch.
Devin said, I can't believe you dated that CUNT.
Damn.
OH MY GOD!! And Devin is moving with us. . .holy shit. . .
TOTAL WIZARDS!!!!!
Him and I bogarted the stereo ALL NIGHT. . .And we had a fat Maiden sing along, and made everyone who didn't like it leave the room. . .He's my twin.
It's like the movie twins, except we're both Arnold Schwarzzenegger, and our awesomeness combined will rule the world.
I so wanted everyone there, to share with me in the magic.
And the cops came. . .HA HA. . . they thought we were fighting.
And I have today off too!! SO STOKED!!
Timeline: Week and a half. . .contracts signed
Two weeks. . .Oregon <3
One month. . .Last show with Chris :(
Month and a half. . .GONE TO LA!!
OMG and I got my car fixed!!
I love you all.
xoxoxox <33 |
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| Can't turn around |
[Jul. 2nd, 2005|02:39 pm] |
Craziest week ever. . .
And I mean ever.
I'm so glad I have a day off to ijust unplug and chill.
Work is great though I can't complain, I just wish that maybe i had a little more time there to make money and stuff before the what-have-you.
I'm getting super sentimental over everything that's going on. . .it's really so weird.
But I think July 16th is going to be a good day.
And I realized the new Against Me! Is superior to all. . .I mean why update with what's in my head right now when they already said it perfectly.
"Can't Turn Around"
"I wake up, around 4 or 5
Eat, shower, and get dressed in about. . .an hours time
Take my vitamins, check my messages, and make some calls to some friends
Make plans for dinner and drinks, sometime after 9.
Now it's definitely time to call an end to the night
I need some time to dry out, to clear my mind
But before you know there I am again
Fuckin 2 o' clock in the morning
Standing in a bar, with a drink in hand
How looooooooooooooow can you go??!!
Before you turn around. . .
Now seriously, this is my last and final time
I'm making some big, big changes in my life
No you won't catch me down here again
Waiting to score, sweaty money palmed in my hand
What the fuck are you cutting this with anyway??
Cuz I have got some really, really big plans
And today's the day I'm putting them into action
But before you know it here I am again
Fuckin' 6 o' clock in the morning
Rolled up dollar bill in my hand
How loooooooooooooooow can you go??!!
Before you turn around. . .
And I'm sick of feeling like I'm losing my mind
Sick of doing the same thing night after night
Sick of self loathing
Self absorption
Self destructive narcissism
I'm sick to death of feeling constantly fucking sick
And whoooooooooooooooo I could trust!!??
Comes to a stop
And there's no one"
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