i'll fucking stab you!!

Oh man. . .

Tue, 09 May 2006 18:02:08 GMT

Haven't updated in a while. . . Shit son. . .

Over a lot of things.

Looking forward to a lot of things.

And it needs to stop being cloudy.

Fucking libraries.

Holla back for waxing.

Fin.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 01:03:54 GMT

Everyone listen to Stars.

And Hollywood Undead.

And come visit me at work.

I'm bored.

And I'm getting my plane tickets to come home for Christmas. . . I'm pretty excited.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 04:14:30 GMT

Life is good.

Sweet even.

Mmmmm

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 02:06:00 GMT

So I am in love with two things.

1. Bean & Guacamole & potato burritos from Pedro's

2. Stefanie

And okay, things are just going too awesome for words.

Who said being homeless was ever supposed to be depressing and hopeless?

Job interview tomorrow. So, here's to hoping. . .

Hugs and kisses everyone!!

XOXOXOX.....L

PS I might be coming home for my birthday, not sure yet.

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 21:48:23 GMT

Went to Mexico this weekend.

Won't be talking about that heh heh. . .

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 22:16:02 GMT

I only feel anger.

I could seriously kill.

Don't think you'll be safe back home without our protection, you're done, and one day it will come to bite you in the ass.

The way you treat people. . .you deserve to be beaten within an inch of your life and then have everything you've ever loved stolen, broken, damaged, or dead in your own arms.

I won't hesitate to punch you in your coked up nose, or beat your ugly face until it's unrecognizable.

This is unforgivable and YOU are a piece of shit fucking liar, two faced backstabbing bastard of a friend.

I'm so glad I won't see you again.

Fuck you.

I'm done.

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 19:39:10 GMT

So I saw dolphins the other day off the coast. . .that was pretty rad.

Things are getting better down here. . .And I'm reaaaally excited about it.

I ate a really good burrito yesterday.

Being homeless is boring except for the getting faded, I now understand completely and will never get down on any other homeless person again. . . Seriously.

But we're moving into our practice space today, which is way rad, it's vicinity to the water. . .not so much. Now I have to drive 20 minutes to get to the beach.

So whack.

Wow

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 23:21:00 GMT

So I'm finally settled (kinda) for the time being down here in Sunny California. . .
Things haven't QUITE gone 100 percent like they're supposed too, but that's too be expected. I'm fairly certain it'll all work out, seeing as how we're all working hard to make sure it does.
I will not fail at this.

And I mean c'mon. . .I go to the beach EVERY DAY. . .Ahhh. .. Jealous??
But still. . .I can't seem to get any sun. . .I'm outside all day and I'm still as pale as printer paper.
Sigh.
Kiel is leaving today though too, and I'm going to miss that guy TOO MUCH. We've certainly had some crazy f'n adventures this pass week.
Many of them too awesome and scandalous to be listed for this audience. . .

Oh yeah, and everyone back home that cares.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
(Especially you Ryan)
<3

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 19:54:33 GMT

So a couple things.

I left and am in Sacramento on my way down. bye bye.

HA HA, the fair was rad, but I wish I saw more people when I was there, but no one had money and everyone was busy.

I miss my friends already, and I saw Justine yesterday and it made me really sad, so I did what I usually do when I get that way and I just stopped talking.
But she made me the best card ever. And I hope she doesn't ever lose touch with me.
I'll so stab you cupcake!!

Matt and I rule at everything and are having more fun than you.

I love Stefanie. And am realising it more and more.

And I GET AWESOME!!! (So does Meghano)

That is all.

<3

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 22:25:45 GMT

My journal entries have gotten too serious.

Today was my last day of work. . .FUCK YEAH!!

So naturally I was quite bored.

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Jason "Good Times" Mills
Birthday:	11-27
Birthplace:	Renton
Current Location:	My living room
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	Brown/Blonde
Height:	6' 4"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Righty Tighty
Your Heritage:	Hell yeah I'm a dirty white boy
The Shoes You Wore Today:	My work shoes
Your Weakness:	Kryptonite
Your Fears:	Being struck by lightning 67 times
Your Perfect Pizza:	Umm. . .vegetables
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	First place on the Special Olympics Rowing team
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	Awesome
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Why are you still here?
Your Best Physical Feature:	The huge mole on my back
Your Bedtime:	When the sun comes up
Your Most Missed Memory:	I have no memories now
Pepsi or Coke:	PBR
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Taco Bell
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	This survery is dumb
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Dark chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Rockstar
Do you Smoke:	Like a chimney
Do you Swear:	Like a sailor
Do you Sing:	Like a drunken buffoon
Do you Shower Daily:	Meh sometimes
Have you Been in Love:	Of course
Do you want to go to College:	Pft
Do you want to get Married:	Pft
Do you belive in yourself:	Too a fault
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Nah
Do you think you are Attractive:	Fuck yeah!! I'm GORGEOUS!!
Are you a Health Freak:	HAHA see the question about smoking
Do you get along with your Parents:	Yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Thundestorms are freakin' HOT!!
Do you play an Instrument:	I play twenty instruments, and one of them is YOUR ASS!!
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Of course
In the past month have you Smoked:	Of course
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Of course
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Well "date" I guess if that's what the kids are calling it
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	HA HA. . .sigh. . .yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	God no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Well. . .in a stifling basement
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Pft. . .no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Only the hearts of the nation
Ever been Drunk:	HAHA I am now
Ever been called a Tease:	Oh yes
Ever been Beaten up:	Surprisingly no
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes
How do you want to Die:	Heroin overdose, age 27
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	A junkie
What country would you most like to Visit:	Nepal
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue
Favourite Hair Color:	Black or blonde
Short or Long Hair:	They just need to have hair
Height:	Over 5' under 6' 4"
Weight:	Not fat
Best Clothing Style:	None
Number of Drugs I have taken:	Umm. . .it's funny is this is the question I've spent the most time on. . .I think umm. . .well it's a lot
Number of CDs I own:	678, carefully places in alphabetical order
Number of Piercings:	none
Number of Tattoos:	two
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Sobriety
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 22:04:16 GMT

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to everyone that came to our going away party on Friday, it was just too much good times to handle.

The show went EXCELLENT, I wish a couple of our older friends would've made it on time, but it's all good. . .the encouragement they gave me afterwards more than made up for it. And it was simply amazing to see SO MANY old friends and new come out to show their support, it was probably the most emotional show we've played in a long time. Sarah gave me a rose too. . .(aww) Even Nick from Eugene made it out to the show, it was an amazing coincidence that he was in town, and I think we showed him a good time. heh heh. . .

The party was off the hizzy as well. . . Same level of emotion and satisfaction. . .(Except add cheap keg beer and various recreational drugs)

It felt good to get drunk and pass out in my van again. Ahh. . .working too much has kind of steered me away from the Crunkton Express, which I suppose is good, but whatever. . .it was MY PARTY AND I'LL GET DRUNK AND SLEEP IN MY VAN IF I WANT TOO.

I'll miss all of you, I didn't even realize it until Friday. . .it's going to suck not having you all in my daily life, but I guess that's what the internets for. :)

Matt and I hung out downtown all day yesterday and just talked and had a Seattle day, I'm going to miss this city a lot too. . . the monuments, the buildings, the smells, the sights. . .those roads I've driven down so many times.

16 days Seattle. . . <3

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 01:35:14 GMT

One of my customers today called me the sweetest young man she's ever known. . .she gave me chocolate from Germany (I couldn't bear to not take it<3, I gave it to my brother) and told me to thank my mother for doing such a good job on me when I got home.
She called me "baby" and "honey pie" it was extra, extra adorable.
I found more in common with her husband who is 82 than in any other person I've ever met to date.
My life as an old (black) man suddenly flashed in front of me.
I think we're going to be okay here.

I want to shop before I leave.

And I want to see ALL OF YOU at our going away party tomorrow at Mexi Mike Torres' house!!!

Bros, Beers, Blunts, and Bitches in full effect. . .It's going to be HUGE, HUUUUGE!!!!

We're playing all of our old songs too.

So

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 04:47:16 GMT

So.
Last night was quite nice, I hung out with Ben and Matt and Chris and helped cleaned their apartment before we all move, it sucked since they hadn't been living there since they were robbed, so everything was just kinda barren and all too surreal.
I hadn't seen those fools in like two weeks too, and had really started to miss them quite terribly.
Everyone got emotional too, as we went over all of the sentiment that had built up in their apartment over time, and spoke of what was to happen in the future. B
Ben and Chris are leaving two weeks before Matt and I, so it's going to be saddening again not having them around.
True friendship is seeing their faces and knowing they're my brothers till death.
True friendship is EVERYTHING that we have gone through together and are still standing and still love eachother unconditionally.
<3

We found some of Brian's stuff too, and a couple of old pictures, little things here and there that brought a deep measure of nostalgia to the evening. Things I'm glad the fucking bitches who robbed them decided to leave alone.
I noticed Ben seemed very pained too, when we were cleaning and uncovered all of the strollers and various baby knick knacks he had purchased before what's her name went all psycho-hose-beast. I think deep down he'll never get over that and what she did.
Anyway I was tired as shit this morning and work was whack. . . I need to get out of that nazi slave camp soon. Don't get me wrong it's fun as hell.
My boss is just worse than Hitler.
I'm going to drink now.

So. . .Oregon

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 06:03:47 GMT

I think this weekend can be described as totally awesome.
It's on the same level as dragon slaying or a victory at putt putt golf.
Which are both very high on my levels of good timesery. . .
Okay. . .so I don't drive well and was reminded of such.
And I take crappy pictures.

And even though there was that silence, which saddened me a little bit towards the end. . .
I still would not have given one second up for anything. NOT ONE!!
Not for all the putt putt 1st place trophies and slain dragons in the world.

Highlights:

-- Rockstars by the gallon (pretty much)
-- Crazy 'Nam vets in dive bars from Seattle
-- Splattering Taco bell packets for distance (I'm pretty sure I won)
-- Pretty much Taco Bell
-- Parks in Springfield after "curfew" (yeah apparently there's a curfew down there, luckily I'm old. . .ha ha)
-- Tile painting. . .sail boats. . .unicorns. . .love. . .and scuba divers. . .
-- SHOPPING!!!!!
-- Thrift store coats that were totally bodacious
-- Eating whole onions with mah TDE boyzzz. . .
-- Dance parties in the car
-- Picture taking. . .
-- SHOPPING!!!!!
-- Shoes and bags and blue elephants!! <3
-- Ziggy
-- Fucking air conditioning
-- Hugs
-- Meeting new people that were rad (Dylan and Jeremiah and Chris and Amanda). . .

We rule this school.

Justine + Rockstar = forever lovers

My blossoming artistic talents.

Being precious.

We rule?? Pretty much?? FUCK YEAH!

<33

ZIGGY!!

I love you BESTEY!!
Like fo life n shit.
Seriously.
<3333

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 09:16:39 GMT

Wilkeson is the worst town ever.

Seriously, Logan, move. . .

Maybe. . .to LA??

I'll get lonely nights. . .

I've decided my middle name shall be "good times" and I shall roll as such.

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 07:49:48 GMT

I ate vegan cupcakes today. . .
They were so fabulous!! I bet I can con Sarah into more wonderful baked deliciousness in the future. I'll just shake my moneymaker and maybe show her my boobs??
I bought various goods and services today with my own money for the first time in forever.
My friends are all eternally happy for me I'm sure. . .ha ha, they're going to save so much money now.
I hope they all know how grateful I am to all of them and to all of YOU for always being there and helping me out.
Now it's going to be my turn to spend money to help everyone out. :)
<3

I'm beginning to have a lot of doubts though. . .a LOT of doubts.
I want to kill the guy that slapped Chris. ("You don't slap a man!!" HA HA)
I want to leave this place.
And I want certain people to make up their mind, about everything. I think I've wrapped too many emotions in it. . .way more than I shoud've allowed myself too.

I sang karaoke at work today. I mean. . .c'mon!!

Okay

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 10:08:49 GMT

So I got a haircut this weekend.
I blew shit up.
I ate fake meat.
I drank beer.
I worked. . .but didn't "work," HA HA I love my job.
Today I spun around in my chair until I passed out, then took a nap, then got taken out to lunch.
It's hard work I tell you what.

I'm posting pictures of the new dew. . .I don't like it so much, but it's hair I guess.
Stupid Kiersten moved to Houston.

That's me in case anyone forgot what I looked like.

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 08:12:38 GMT

I'm not handling this well

There are those who were there, and those who will claim to have been there

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 18:28:57 GMT

So I know I already updated yesterday, but I just had to write about the greatest night ever.
Holy shit it was fun.
Mainly because Dennis was there hanging out and it was just raucous good times. He was wearing short shorts with a stuffed crotch and I performed felatio on his inflated package. . .it's times like these I wish I had a camera.
HA HA. . Even though my ex girlfriend showed up and just gave me dirty looks and mean comments all night, I even played The Cure for her and gave her a beer.
It's okay because as soon as she left everyone started cheering.
Karen called her a bitch.
Devin said, I can't believe you dated that CUNT.
Damn.
OH MY GOD!! And Devin is moving with us. . .holy shit. . .
TOTAL WIZARDS!!!!!
Him and I bogarted the stereo ALL NIGHT. . .And we had a fat Maiden sing along, and made everyone who didn't like it leave the room. . .He's my twin.
It's like the movie twins, except we're both Arnold Schwarzzenegger, and our awesomeness combined will rule the world.
I so wanted everyone there, to share with me in the magic.
And the cops came. . .HA HA. . . they thought we were fighting.
And I have today off too!! SO STOKED!!
Timeline: Week and a half. . .contracts signed
Two weeks. . .Oregon <3
One month. . .Last show with Chris :(
Month and a half. . .GONE TO LA!!
OMG and I got my car fixed!!
I love you all.

xoxoxox <33

Can't turn around

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 22:02:30 GMT

Craziest week ever. . .
And I mean ever.
I'm so glad I have a day off to ijust unplug and chill.
Work is great though I can't complain, I just wish that maybe i had a little more time there to make money and stuff before the what-have-you.
I'm getting super sentimental over everything that's going on. . .it's really so weird.
But I think July 16th is going to be a good day.

And I realized the new Against Me! Is superior to all. . .I mean why update with what's in my head right now when they already said it perfectly.

"Can't Turn Around"

"I wake up, around 4 or 5
Eat, shower, and get dressed in about. . .an hours time
Take my vitamins, check my messages, and make some calls to some friends
Make plans for dinner and drinks, sometime after 9.
Now it's definitely time to call an end to the night
I need some time to dry out, to clear my mind
But before you know there I am again
Fuckin 2 o' clock in the morning
Standing in a bar, with a drink in hand

How looooooooooooooow can you go??!!
Before you turn around. . .

Now seriously, this is my last and final time
I'm making some big, big changes in my life
No you won't catch me down here again
Waiting to score, sweaty money palmed in my hand
What the fuck are you cutting this with anyway??
Cuz I have got some really, really big plans
And today's the day I'm putting them into action
But before you know it here I am again
Fuckin' 6 o' clock in the morning
Rolled up dollar bill in my hand

How loooooooooooooooow can you go??!!
Before you turn around. . .

And I'm sick of feeling like I'm losing my mind
Sick of doing the same thing night after night
Sick of self loathing
Self absorption
Self destructive narcissism
I'm sick to death of feeling constantly fucking sick

And whoooooooooooooooo I could trust!!??
Comes to a stop
And there's no one"

Stuff and things. . .

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 20:22:36 GMT

So last night was pretty much awesome. . .I wanted to write it all down when I got home so I wouldn't forget. . .buuuut I fell asleep instead.
Ian came up in conversation so many times last night. . .First Chris and I talked about it, then it was just like topic conversation numero uno, but no one meant too. It just happened.
And Ryan and I discussed blanket forts, and building one in Matt and Aaron's house while they were sleeping, and then we sang The Cure to eachother and I think it was a magical moment. He also ALWAYS has a lighter, now that's a good friend.
Karen is my friend now. . .I love her a lot, she seriously made one of the best mix CD's I've ever heard.
And I hung out with Lea too, and that was fun. As ALWAYS!!
And singalongs with Aaron are the best, and it never fails. . .never fails, to just make the night become the best ever, just because we sing our hearts out to whatever sentimental piece of crap comes on, and don't even care.
But I couldn't sing yesterday because I lost my voice from work.
Who would know that just talking non stop all day would be hard on your vocal chords. :)

"There's a hope in my head that's been cut and bled
dry as your bloodshot eyes.
And there's smoke in the air
and it's soon to clear revealing our demise.
There are some who say that it's a.o.k.
if it makes you feel alright.
It's just way too bad
now you're worse than sad
all locked up there inside.
And I don't know how you feel
but I'll make you a deal
if you make it out alive.
My shoulders and ears are all yours my dear.
I hope it comes as no suprise.
You've been known to say that you're a.o.k.
when you're feeling sick (dead) inside.
I just want you to know
I've got no place to go until the day you die.
While you're waiting, be thankful for your fingers.
I'll be fading with the colors of your pictures.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 00:10:29 GMT

I got a job. . .WOO!!

And it's not actually bad. . .time to start saving money so bills can be paid and people can be visited.

Soon enough.

So. . .

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 22:33:26 GMT

I originally had a big fat entry with a description verbatim of a gentleman that doesn't like me and their thoughts on me. I took it out at someone's request, I personally have no qualms with this person, and I've already edited it again, so I'm just going to leave things be, it's not really in my character to dwell on things like this.

But you know, I had an AMAZING weekend. . .

At the party at Chris' the other night Ian passed out really early so we shrank wrapped him to his bed and then Chris farted on his face to wake him up, it was so awesome. . .I couldn't breathe I was laughing so hard. I think I literally was about to pass out. . .We took pictures but my camera is ultra crappy so none of them came out very well.

And then last night. . .After drinking with my mom all night, I received a phone call telling me about my friends birthday party that I "had to attend." And so Piper and I went and got SUPER lost downtown trying to find the stupid place, because we were told the wrong cross streets. . .but it's all good when we finally showed up, I got to see Ryan and Devin and Aaron again, which always puts me in a party mood. Especially YOU Ryan. . . ;)

Oh yeah I have a new AIM SN. . .finally. . .hit me up everyone!!!

AIM: A Field Of Slain

Okay. . .fine. . .I'll bite

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 18:06:41 GMT

Okay everyone, it's quite simple:

01. Comment with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
04. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
05. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
06. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
07. I'll write something you've taught me.
08. Put this in your journal

Portland and friends and times and cars

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 09:43:54 GMT

The show in Portland was awesome. . . best time we've had there in a while.
Driving down was excellent, especially when Matt showed his ass to that old couple on the freeway, and then when both him AND Ben peed in Gatorade bottles in the back of the van because we were running late.
Rockstar's turn your piss green. . .it's interesting.
Hung out with Brodie and Josh and Johnny B and Dave and Scottie, HELL YEAH!!
Scottie told a horrific joke about elephant penis that I can't remember very well, and I think the cops came to our party like ten times.
It was just straight good times and I made enough money from the show to pay my cell phone bill. . .WOOT!!
I watched Chapelle's show season two all day at Matt's while he was at work.

"Something you don't know about me Joe Rogan. . .I smoke rocks."